A new realization

This might just be my mood or my frame of mind, but I seem to have reached a new level in my Bo fandom. He had a show on the 4th of July that I missed, and also a run of shows started last night that I will not be attending. Used to, even earlier this summer, I moped and sulked and felt like I would be so left out if I missed a show. Not now. Last night I thought about the show, read a little about the cellcert, but it didn't really bother me that I wasn't there.

Now don't faint. I haven't changed the way I feel about Bo at all. If anything, I just love that man more. It kind of reminds me of when my oldest son lived 1200 miles away. I missed him, loved him with all my heart, but I realized that I couldn't see him as often as I'd like. And when I did see him, it was just such a delight! I thought about him daily, just like I think of Bo daily. I'm proud of him just like I was proud of my son. I know he's out there working hard doing what he loves. I know he values me as a fan, and that's not going to change whether my face is there on the front row every show or not.

Don't think I'm going to stop traveling to see him...oh no! Not a chance! But if I don't get to go I am fine with it. Like I said, this may be my mood or state of mind and later on I may get a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach when I miss a show, but for now I'm a happy fan, bursting with pride for Bo, wanting him to have huge crowds and adoring fans at his feet. And I know when I do see him again the scenario will probably go like it has in times past: he'll give me a huge smile, most likely enthusiastically say "BoLisa!", (maybe even give me a hug; that happens sometimes), chatter like a magpie, tell me he appreciates or loves me and things will be just the same. He does love me (as a fan; I'm not delusional, lol!) and I love him. Always.